The heart is the place where we live our passions. It is frail and easily broken, but wonderfully resilient. There is no point in trying to deceive the heart. It depends upon our honesty for its survival. - Leo Buscaglia (Born For Love)



That really made me think, and it is true, so I will try not to be all into the getting hurt when liking someone thing. He's just really amazing.

I went and seen my Angels and Demons with my ex lover! Hahah Ex lover. I totally have no feelings for him, He is seeing someone and it's like good! I just think its pretty weird that I don't have feelings for him on the account that I was dating him for 4 years. It's good though, because he can just be a good friend knowing everything Ive been going threw and such.

I went got another run outside, I usually just do my cardio at the gym. Since my knee is all messed up. But its been pretty good from the running outside, I run for an hour and forty-five minutes. I only slow down for a power walk twice. Its good though because the run that I'm doing in June here, for cancer. I'm excited to be doing that. I love my watch, and how much calories I did! :)

Food for today was:
Baked apples with cinnamon.
An orange.
Air popcorn.
Then some more baked apples.

It doesn't look like a lot now.. but while in taking it, it sure does.
Its really see how its just all I think about, and it doesn't matter!! But it does so much. The silly thing too every time I see a dietitian, they are like over weight.. Why would you take advice from someone over weight? But in all seriousness. I would rather die than to gain weight. I would rather die early than gain weight. It matters in this world with looks but then with people you are close with it doesn't matter. Its just all messed up in here!! :(

My Prozac does make me sleepy! Haha So for now on, I'm only take it at night! Its only made me happier though. Well I shouldn't say that, Its a really really good thing, Since I had like an 'intervention' at work a few days ago about how I have changed and how they think I need help with my eating. I don't talk about it with people but I guess from me looking 'too thin' So I think the mood thing will maybe help them out better. I really cant eat meals, or high calorie good, Even 50 is like oh dear. But I think once I move away it will be better. It will be better for everyone.