Ok. I'm getting back to normal! I know, its amazing.
I'm not going out as much anymore and not eating so much. So its all good.

So I seen some eating disorder videos, well the commercials right.. And they don't look too different to me than the people in my magazines. Like oxygen, women's health and such.

Ive tried to avoid mirrors more than usually lately, but when I seen how big I got, I don't want to look in another until I'm back to normal again. Ugh I was so skinny. It was perfection, almost. I would totally do anything to get that back.

There's alot of stress about everything at this moment. It's helping me not eat though. Also with that the Prozac. Amazing.

Yes, I think I'm supposed to just live life alone. Its ok though. Its better that way. I think some people are just supposed to be alone.