I was in Safeway today doing my usual "oh I'm going to get something healthy, like a stir fry or chicken breast' But just ended up getting popcorn and soup. I seen this couple, the women was bigger, and bigger than the man, she had no make-up and wore not so lovely looking clothes on herself. I'm not saying that I am the most fashionable person ever, always wearing yoga pants and a t-shirt but I also do not wear them tight. The man like had all his attention on her, he look at her when she spoke, smiled, and even would put his hand on her back to guide her threw. How is that possible? For someone to love someone like that? I'm not shallow at all. Ok. I know this sounds totally shallow, but like how could he not cheat with everything else out there. Like he wasn't too looking. I know personalities matter sooo much! Like with guys. I'm only attracted to them when I get to know them. I don't really have the type of dark hair.. built.. etc. But like for a guy to be like that??? I'm amazed, I felt jealous, I envied that women. To just be yourself enjoy your food, and have someone actually just like you for that? I think only a small amount of people find that. I'm like 95 percent sure I'm not going to find it. Since I care too much about my appearance. I wished I did like myself. Like I do have strong believes and personality, I don't give in to peer pressure and I want to be skin and bone for myself. Everyone has told me I looked awful being like that but I want it for me. So I think if your totally 110 percent ok with yourself, you can find someone who could like you. I would like to just smack some sense into me. Its simple but its not. Its everything to me.